mistress - 10:02pm

I think about him every day, I lie to myself. Say I only indulged because I was sad… but really I’ve loved him since we were 4. I miss the days when he chased me like a dream. I wish I didn’t… but oh god I do. I still remember his oldest brothers name, and the way he spoke mine. The chain he wore around his neck in middle school. He had a dimple that used to shine on the left side of his cheek when he laughed. I miss the days he looked at me like I put the stars in the sky. He told me he would never leave me, I guess that was a lie too.